Yesterday morning, just after breakfast, I went out into the garden, anticipating a quick look-around to see what magic had happened during the night! And with every intention of coming back in and making a rhubarb crisp from the stalks I had picked the day before.
However, - my son-in-law came to inquire if this would be a good day to cut back the poor Blaze rose who didn't make it through the winter, and how could I not take advantage of his kind offer. One thing led to another, - with the dead wood gone I was able to reach all the couch grass that finds its way through the fence from the neighbours yard. And then there were the saplings that had grown up around the elderberry tree, and the remnants of my potting flowers that needed to find a home in the new bed I had made beside the house......
I stopped for coffee, thinking it must be 'that time' - hobbled into the house (I was hobbling by this time!) and discovered it was twenty minutes past twelve - lunch time!!!! How time flies when one is in the midst of passion of one kind or another.........
This morning, at five o'clock, my aching muscles muttered at me - "foolish woman, foolish woman" and I couldn't stay in bed a minute longer!!
Today my gardening will consist of a long session in the comfy garden swing, a cup of tea and one of the new books I picked up at the library yesterday. Over breakfast I glanced at the first few pages of the preface to "The Cloister Walk" by Kathleen Norris, and on the second or third page she talks about time and our perspective of the fleeting quality of life, - enemy or gift?????
Time does not hang heavy on my hands, but it does occupy my mind now that I have come to realize it is not limitless.... And so I will start with this book, which also has another story to it. In conversation at church last Sunday Kim, our new adventurous minister, asked if I had read Kathleen Norris. I said 'yes' but not realizing which Kathleen Norris he was referring to. My Kathleen Norris was a novelist, whose books I read early in my marriage, - but Kim's Kathleen Norris is a poet who writes about religion, meditation and has a history of being a Presbyterian Oblate to a Benedictine Monastery. When I realized this I ordered what books I could from the library, and they came immediately.
The lines which drew my attention like a bolt of lightening:---
"Gradually my perspective on time had changed. In our culture time can seem like an enemy: it chews us up and spits us out with appalling ease. But the monastic perspective welcomes time as as gift from God, and seeks to put it to good use rather than allowing us to be used up by it. A friend who was educated by the Benedictines has told me that she owes to them her sanity with regard to time. "You never really finish anything in life," she says, "and while that's humbling and frustrating it's all right. The Benedictines, more than any other people I know, insist that there is time in each day for prayer, for work, for study, and for play" Liturgical time is essentially poetic time, oriented toward process rather than productivity, willing to wait attentively in stillness rather than always pushing to 'get the job done." (end of quote)
So today I plan to devote my time to an appreciation of what I HAVE done in the garden,
(though it is not finished)
and to feeding my soul with an appreciation of what Time I have had,
and what Time I have left...
and how best to fill these lovely days....
And my aching muscles say 'thank you'!!!!
All they have to do today is hold the book......
1 comment:
I remember novels by Kathleen Norris and was therefore surprised at first by the title of the book you said you were reading which did not sound at all like how I remembered her. And after the explanation I am now more than intrigued by the second Ms Norris. The description of her as 'a Presbyterian oblate to a Benedictine monastery' alone is enough to whet my curiosity.
I do understand about time, yes I certainly do. And I am in as always such deep admiration of all of the work you do in your beautiful yard. My back aches in sympathy and I have done no such hard physical labor at all lately!
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